Always On My Mind...
I hated myself immediately, but being the stubborn bitch I am the majority of the time, I just could not cease and desist. I guess I just assumed that you didn't want to talk to me. I let myself get upset over a status from weeks ago, that probably didn't have anything to do with me. But, of course, I read too much into it. Constantly, I wanted to call you but I always felt that you didn't want to talk. I forgot that if I someone wants something bad enough they make it happen. You're right. I don't know anything about anything anymore, cause I haven't been around. Why I haven't been, I do not know. I guess it started over a year ago after my suicide attempt. I just feel like I want to talk about me all the time and I feel guilty about that. I'm a burden to everyone as it is and after that, it just got worse. I know, it doesn't matter. Hell, I know in the larger picture of the universe I don't matter nor do any of my supposed problems. Unl